Missing Miss

Its like no matter how you explain it or how you say it, can't nothing help you to tell it like the way your heart feel. I remember coming home from summer school in my mom's car and hearing her just out of no where just said "Laila, Miss die, everyone die," I was shock, because I've never dealt with death this personal. So for it to happen just blew me away.  To be honest her death didn't hit me at 1st, because I didn't realize that, I'll no longer have her in my life, or talk to her face to face or that I'll never see her as long as I live. Life for me was complicated for me to grasp. I remember being afraid to sleep at night because I was afraid that I'll see her as a ghost and I wasn't ready for that. My appetite was gone, I no longer yarn for food, and no matter how hard I try to eat food wasn't no longer sweet in my mouth.  To be honest her death really was my 1st heart break that I'll never forget because of the feeling that it bought towards me. I remember our last conversation together I remember her saying that she was trying to get her husband to America so that they can live together in one big house and she was going to come get me so that I can live with her. I was very happy to hear about this beautiful plan. But unfortunately things didn't go as planned. I'll stop right here because this is too much to write down.