It has been really, really, really hard these past couple of months. Now I'm not the one to broadcast anything personal on here on the daily but this one I must. I just woke up and I remember seeing and feeling Miss in my dream last night... She came and visit me. I remember her wearing all white and me being afraid of her because I know that I was seeing her as a sprit, but she comforted me calling my name saying " Laila how are you" and I'm just staring at her telling her h...ow much I've missed her since she died in the house fire. I remember feeling tears drop falling down my eyes tremendously while I tell everything that I've been through. She stood there in all white and said that she already know and saw what I had been through. Now I'm convince that what the prophet told me that there is an angel out there watching over me is true. I remember I kept crying screaming telling her how alone I'm and how hard it's for me to handle every thing. I will never forget what Miss told me she said " stay in school and stay focused I'm here with you". The moment she told me this I remember every memories me and her had. Like her being the most wonderful mother figure I have ever had in my entire life. Especially how close we were I remember when I was little in Africa I was known to be her shadow everywhere she"ll go I'll always be behind her. When she used to finish cooking and divide everyone else food. me and her will always eat together from the pot that was our special thing. Like no one never understand or relate to me the way this woman did. Miss was all I knew, she raised me like her own. When she died, I couldn't eat or sleep over a MONTH! I had my 1st heart broken it feel like part of me had died along with her. By her visiting me in my dreams EVERYTHIME I feel depress and sad let me know that I'm not walking alone in this battle that I'm facing. God has a plane for me and I truly believe that I'll prosper in this life in a way that my story will be told throughout the world. I'm and always will be walking by faith and not by sight..
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