I am going to beat the odds regardless...

If I tell you my story will you believe me? If I tell you the things that were done to me and the things that I've done will you still look at me the same? I've been through hell and back to the point the devil is sick of tire of seeing me. many time have I questioned God why me? Why my life got to be the way that it's? I feel like I am alone in this world even though I have God/Jesus and my support system with me... It still does not feel like I am surrounded by a crowd. Sometime I isolated myself from everyone and just keep to myself. I've changed eversince my Miss died. I've become a woman and through that process it has been a bittersweet ride. I've got my heart and back stabbed by people that I break my back for. I have seen friendship that I never thought that I would see come to end actually coming to a end. It hurt when you experienced some hard time with someone and defending someone that others say bad things about to turn around and fuck you over with no fuck given. I can't even fathom how much it hurt is like your heart is numb you don't know what to say and how to say it. But one thing that I can say and mean it is that I am tire if getting stabbed in the back. I am tire of breaking my back for the wrong people. I am ready for a break through. I am ready for change. A new location, a new look,attitude, and a new blessing.