Happy mother day Miss!

When I think of a mother my mind recall your name. Although you're not my bilogical mother, you still play a hug part in my entire life. I can NEVER find a love like yours and I don't want to b/c your love is priceless and irreplaceable. Unfortunately you're no longer alive but I believe that you're here with me in sprit. I'm going to do my best to make you proud b/c you deserved to see me at the top. I love you and will always cherish our  moments and memories. Always and forever. 

His face turn red!

Now I know who exactly my crush is. It funny how one action of someone can leave  a impact on someone. 

Let me remind myself...

I'm a queen not just a ordinary queen but a black one. I'm a threat to many and because of that it finally open up my eyes that they see something in me that I have not seen. I'm a strong young lady. I've dealt with a lot of battles. Won some and than lose some but at the end of it all I became stronger and wiser from it. I'm a child of God, not just any Gods but the God of Elijah. Because he's my father I'm built to be undefeated and forever cover by the blood of Jesus. I'm a book full of stories from my personal experiences and from others personal stories. There can never be another me no matter if I get duplicated. There's no women on this earth that can encounter what I've experienced and still be standing. No one! 

This year

I've learn a lot these months. I realized that I'm good at observing people and their ways. I can tell when someone is being phony or not. This year I have become more prayerful than I ever been before.

I've learn

I've learned through my personal experiences in life that you got to always pay attentions to people and their actions. When someone shows you their true color the 1st time you have to pay close attention and DONT ignore it. It's okay to help others but make sure that you are aware of who you're helping. Not everyone that advice you mean good towards you. You have the balance the high with the low. 

Dear God of Elijah

You already know what I'm about to say. I'm want to thank you for EVERYTHING! you have been there for me through it all. If I'm noting in this world I know that I'm something in your eyes. You know me! The real me. You knew what I was going to go through when you was creating me. Even though I get older every year and my body changes through every age I'm still a child of God. Sometime I'm ungrateful towards you. Do I mean it? No I'm just young and naive. But I want to thank you for still sticking around and watching over me. I could of been dead a long time ago. But each blessing mornings you give life into me. I honestly be thinking how can I still have a good heart after all that I been through? But than I think about Jesus and his kind heart that he had for everyone even those that did him wrong. I finally understand why I still have a good heart b/c my heart reflect the goodness of Jesus's heart. I've disappointed you too many time but still you show me your mercy. There were time when I even doubted you because I was foolishly walking my sight and not by faith. That's where I went wrong. I don't have the last saying about my life only you do. I have faith in you that you'll make a way for me. 

Crying in my dream....

I had a dream this morning. In it I was crying heavy. I remember the way that I cried was the same way that I cried the last time I dream of Miss appearing in my dream. In my dream I was seeing a guy who got adopted by these kind rich people. At first he took them for granted and didn't appreciated everything that they did for him until later on when he had goting older. He came to his sense and ending up doing good. Which made his people proud of him. Than I saw myself reflecting on all the good people that had help me throughout my life. I was sooo overwhelm that I starred crying like a new born tears were poring from my eyes like waterfall. I don't know exactly what this dream mean but I woke up and pray to God to cancel every bad dreams.