Let me remind myself...

I'm a queen not just a ordinary queen but a black one. I'm a threat to many and because of that it finally open up my eyes that they see something in me that I have not seen. I'm a strong young lady. I've dealt with a lot of battles. Won some and than lose some but at the end of it all I became stronger and wiser from it. I'm a child of God, not just any Gods but the God of Elijah. Because he's my father I'm built to be undefeated and forever cover by the blood of Jesus. I'm a book full of stories from my personal experiences and from others personal stories. There can never be another me no matter if I get duplicated. There's no women on this earth that can encounter what I've experienced and still be standing. No one! 

This year

I've learn a lot these months. I realized that I'm good at observing people and their ways. I can tell when someone is being phony or not. This year I have become more prayerful than I ever been before.

I've learn

I've learned through my personal experiences in life that you got to always pay attentions to people and their actions. When someone shows you their true color the 1st time you have to pay close attention and DONT ignore it. It's okay to help others but make sure that you are aware of who you're helping. Not everyone that advice you mean good towards you. You have the balance the high with the low. 

Dear God of Elijah

You already know what I'm about to say. I'm want to thank you for EVERYTHING! you have been there for me through it all. If I'm noting in this world I know that I'm something in your eyes. You know me! The real me. You knew what I was going to go through when you was creating me. Even though I get older every year and my body changes through every age I'm still a child of God. Sometime I'm ungrateful towards you. Do I mean it? No I'm just young and naive. But I want to thank you for still sticking around and watching over me. I could of been dead a long time ago. But each blessing mornings you give life into me. I honestly be thinking how can I still have a good heart after all that I been through? But than I think about Jesus and his kind heart that he had for everyone even those that did him wrong. I finally understand why I still have a good heart b/c my heart reflect the goodness of Jesus's heart. I've disappointed you too many time but still you show me your mercy. There were time when I even doubted you because I was foolishly walking my sight and not by faith. That's where I went wrong. I don't have the last saying about my life only you do. I have faith in you that you'll make a way for me.