June 19th

So I met this handsome guy today at my job. He is a med student at Temple. I told him that I live near Temple and he said that he'll will be seeing me around. :) I also made him blush which was adorable to look at. His name was Matthew. I told him to come back and he said that he would. :) 

Sometimes...

I just want to die. I no longer feel the need to live no more. I'm tire of being toooo strong and holding everything on my own. I don't want to live like this more. I'm tire of living. I'm tire of the bad things and the suffering that I have to go through. I don't value life no more. I just want to be with Miss. Life without her is no longer the same. 

I want you..

To want me the way that I want you. I want you to be good to me and give me nothing but good love both spiritually and physically. I want you to respect me during my presence and my absence. Let anyone that try to get closer to you about me and how you feel about me. I want you to be on the same determation that I'm in so that we can be successful together. I want you to give me all of your attention but at the same time be a man and take charge of me. Let me know when I am wrong and put me in my place. 

Happy mother day Miss!

When I think of a mother my mind recall your name. Although you're not my bilogical mother, you still play a hug part in my entire life. I can NEVER find a love like yours and I don't want to b/c your love is priceless and irreplaceable. Unfortunately you're no longer alive but I believe that you're here with me in sprit. I'm going to do my best to make you proud b/c you deserved to see me at the top. I love you and will always cherish our  moments and memories. Always and forever. 

His face turn red!

Now I know who exactly my crush is. It funny how one action of someone can leave  a impact on someone. 

Let me remind myself...

I'm a queen not just a ordinary queen but a black one. I'm a threat to many and because of that it finally open up my eyes that they see something in me that I have not seen. I'm a strong young lady. I've dealt with a lot of battles. Won some and than lose some but at the end of it all I became stronger and wiser from it. I'm a child of God, not just any Gods but the God of Elijah. Because he's my father I'm built to be undefeated and forever cover by the blood of Jesus. I'm a book full of stories from my personal experiences and from others personal stories. There can never be another me no matter if I get duplicated. There's no women on this earth that can encounter what I've experienced and still be standing. No one! 

This year

I've learn a lot these months. I realized that I'm good at observing people and their ways. I can tell when someone is being phony or not. This year I have become more prayerful than I ever been before.